Hi all, it's been a while since I've posted anything here, mainly because I've had sod all to post about. I doubt that my thrilling days of searching for jobs online and watching TV programmes and films at home make for compelling reading lol. But today is different.
Yesterday something incredible happened. I was accepted into the team at my local Airsoft club. I cannot think of a prouder day in my life than yesterday. My entire life I have always felt like an outsider looking in no matter what social group it has been. I never felt like I fit in anywhere and I had to put on this facade, this other me in order to fit in. I was always picked last for sports teams, even after the person who didn't even know what a ball was. But yesterday I was chosen to join a team that I not only respect but a team of people who have accepted me for who I really am. For the last 10 months my only real social life has been going to Airsoft.
When I first joined the club as a member I wanted to prove that I had what it took to make the team, it was my goal in life to be on that team. It wasn't so much about the competitiveness it was more down to I had found a sport that I loved doing and I would love to be on a team for that, but it was also that I respected each and every member of the team and I wanted to prove to them that being myself I could do it. And yesterday when I was presented with that team patch I knew that I had succeeded. But I was left speechless, it didn't feel real, after all the crap that has happened this year in my life there was something that erased all that and made this year the best of my life. It's hard to describe even now because yesterday I felt like I could do anything, even though I am still unemployed, still struggling with money problems and am still without a girlfriend, the world seemed much more open to anything and everything. Making the team wasn't just something that affected me in terms of my airsoft career, but it has affected my entire outlook on life. For the first time the world doesn't seem like something I will fail in, I feel that I can succeed in everything I aim for, all I have to do is be patient, because as the old saying goes; all good things come to those who wait.
